there are some days when I can't figure out what I feel about everything. my moods are so easily changed by the atmosphere, I feel dizzy even when I'm lying down. my eyes close, and the world spins faster. I need to step sideways into a parallel universe where I am grounded and set on a precise trail before I start moving my feet. as it is, when I walk forward, my balance is compromised for the world around me. distractions control my waking mind, and so far, my life has been woven from the reactions of these. I want to be calm and free and airy, and in control for the most part. I know I can't be any of those until I can figure out a way to keep my mind from all the chaos around me.